I know its been awhile since I turned anything in on DA.. I have a couple of things I want to draw just a matter of time of getting to and the motivation in doing... I guess what I hate is that my stuff never turns out as good as I want it to be.. I know one of them would be for a t shirt that I owe a friend in Indiana. Kinda like a cross of a terminator and Pyramid head. The other thing I wanted to do was draw a bubble head nurse from silent hill and draw her half machine.. both will come in due time.. I just don't know when? I would like some ideas of what to draw so suggestions would be nice... I may just draw them and send them to you just as a Christmas present. well see

I know its been awhile since I turned anything in on DA.. I have a couple of things I want to draw just a matter of time of getting to and the motivation in doing... I guess what I hate is that my stuff never turns out as good as I want it to be.. I know one of them would be for a t shirt that I owe a friend in Indiana. Kinda like a cross of a terminator and Pyramid head. The other thing I wanted to do was draw a bubble head nurse from silent hill and draw her half machine.. both will come in due time.. I just don't know when? I would like some ideas of what to draw so suggestions would be nice... I may just draw them and send them to you just as a Christmas present. well see

Alright so i finally got me some nets, so I dont have to steal from others that offer it free. so now I can keep up with my porn.. I mean my deviations from my friends see how they are doing... And listen to some of you rant because no one is commenting on your stuff... lol which is petty to say the least. I seem to watch more people then people are watching me. so what difference dose that make anyway. Anyway I have alot on my mind right now I don't know how to express them right now.. Because I have forgotten what I was really wanting to express. Hmm apperently it wasnt really that important. anyway you guys be good and have yourselfs a good day.

You know I was thinking I think Im just going to just draw for fun weather I make money or not. I think I have been going about this the wrong way and most of this makes sence when I talked to me dad about this.

So here maybe in a few days I would probley put some art back on here that I feel looks good for me..

I also feel like I waste my time with these stupid fuck'n journals because no one really reads them anyway. you guys be good and have a good day...

I was thinking at about 2 am this morning when i was trying to sleep about what to do with myself. And something came into mind for me is that I realized that I spent 14 years of my life trying to be as good as some of my fav artist "Jeff Scott Campbell was one of them" and something I thought of was when I was at work I would draw a picture and I would put 2 dollers on the picture and everyone would admire it but never spend the two dollers on it.. I also found that it was easier for me to draw the picture and just give it away. My commissions are the cheapest that you or anyone has ever seen and people would rather spend more money on someone elses stuff then to support me. For all of you that commissioned me I will get your commission done and send it to you by your email address (which is only one commission) Anyway as I was saying there is no point for me to go on with this sharaid or believeing that I could get somewhere with this. And too those of you that sit there and say oh well you need to advertise yourself ... Bullshit I do that All the time We are at a website where millions come from across the U.S and all over the world and see all kinds of stuff. I believe I gotten better for what little I have my coloring was in credible. And everything I have ever done was with "no" school. So Im sorry to say is that if I cant get support from you. Then there is no reason why I should keep my stuff on here just a waste of Space for DA.

SO I guess for my next step is to try to find something else for me to focus all my energy on and hope I get somewhere with it. if not I will just continue to work a job or two just to pay bills and spend my money on something else other then art supplies.